2009 will be a very interesting year for Sapphire. A year for my personal life in term of relationship, for my work in Walton, for my relationship with my family, for my assistance in my brother's career...etc...
Many beautiful things have happened to me in year 2008. Very appreciative & contented with all the blessings that I have received.... And I am glad that this year 2009 has somehow allow some of the beautiful things to reach to another different platform.
And now is CNY day 1. Very tired & sleepy :( Alone in a aircon room, wanna sleep...but i am CONTROLLING!! Cos Sapphire dont wanna mess up my hair... ;(
I am sleeppyyyy, think I might be having headache soonzzz :(
BleaH~!
And ya...i visited my ah-ma today..i very sad, nearly cried. sigh....just pain my heart...my spirit is willing but my heart is weak!
Lord...help me & grant me the desires of my heart...bless those whom I love...
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
11:57 PM
Friday, January 23, 2009//
Lord...I am stressed. I really am very very stressed. Jesus, I am really really...disappointed. Sigh. Stressed. Really very stress. :(
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
9:58 AM
I want 5 cars too. Tuesday, January 20, 2009//
I just met my client at Conrad the terrace instead...sigh. what a successful man. 37yrs old. 2 condo + 2 landed. flying from korea to Europe to philippines to vietnam to japan to msia to dubai to saudi etc...
5 cars....BMW, Porsche, Lexus, Toyota MPV & a Ferrari... sigh.
anyway, he is a nice guy, i will prob catch up with him in June 2009 this year to present to him...cos he very very busy...
he is a very famous architect...designed the home of Mr. LKY...Mr. KLB...Mr. Tony ....
Sigh. i love meeting such successful ppl & i always ended up feeling empty after tt.
who can i tok to? :(
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
12:19 AM
Monday, January 19, 2009//
People come and People go. I am currently sitting at conrad hotel, oscar's cafe...waiting for this propsect to turn up. Not going to present, going to catch up & do a little teaser & see what is to come.
This 2009. So much to feel & nothing to say. Tt's really sad. Things happened & it frustrated me. I wished I can easily brush them aside & treat them more lightly. But guess, being me, the real me. It just cant be done. I cant pretend as if nothing happen..haha. Sigh.
Yday, a friend supposed to come to my house for dinner. 5mins later, she gotta go... she felt she wasnt ready to get married. And she cant back up, cos she felt she will disappoint everyone...her boyfrd and his parents too.... And I asked her if you love him? She wasnt sure, but eventually she did kind of say yes. And she says tt she is getting so comfortable with him tt he just means to be a routine to her already...how sad.
like that day when i was pondering...would you rather marry someone whom you can live with? or marry someone whom you cant live without?
of cos, my answer will be the latter. I rather marry someone whom i cant live without...jus like what i always think. It is more blessed for me to love the special someone more, than for the special someone to love me more.
Worse still is when you love the special one & yet there is no reciprocation. Worst still like what one of my frd mentioned, that it is painful when you love someone whom you cant live without & yet you cant be together with that special someone.
I hate it when i always fall. I hate it when i always end up as the one suffering.
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
10:09 PM
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Lord, take away the pain....grant me comfort.
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
6:56 AM
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wisdom tooth is killing me....sigh. why? i hate pain.
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
6:55 AM
Love is patient & Love is kind. Love does not envy. Sunday, January 18, 2009//
Love is never tired of waiting. Love is kind. Love has no envy. Love has no high opinion of itself, Love has no pride. Love's way are ever fair, it takes no thought for itself, it is not quickly made angry, it takes no account of evil. It takes no pleasure in wrongdoing, but has joy in what is true. Love has the power of undergoing all things, having faith in all things, hoping all things.
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
7:26 AM
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It hurts & i am dying. I think i am most prob PMS-ing soon, must be, for this swinging mood once agin.
The downfall comes when lack of self control. Tts the reason when i am always afraid & fearful of.
You never know the pain until you feel it. All of a sudden. Until when the tears began to roll down & you realise that "hmmm, i think it hurts. Ouch."
And I am listening to 88.3FM online streaming now. The emotional chinese songs being played only increase the emotion within. I must be a sadist. Yes, I am. Deserved to be executed.
UNtil now...i have all the english songs on 88.3FM that i feel like offing the online streaming! Haha.
The tears have dried & I have moved on. Or have I not?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Would I take a U-Turn if given a chance? Would I wish I can turn back the hands of time?
Moon and the New York City. I think maybe I need to disappear away from the universe.
So many things that need to be done. Not i want them to be done. I need to do them. Sigh. And i hate it.
I cant follow my mood. I cant do what I want to do. I gotta do what I need to do.
What i want to do, i cant do. Time to be Missing in Action
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
7:09 AM
Argh, i cant post! //
testing tesing....is this blog spoilt liaos? how come never blog any entry :)
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
3:22 AM
I cried.... Wednesday, January 14, 2009//
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
6:19 PM
Jehovah Jeroh //
Sapphire is getting more and more contented lately.
Not that Sapphire is having more and more. But Sapphire is learning to take things at its own strides :) Sapphire is learning to let go & let God.
And Sapphire is choosing to love. To love out of her comfort zone. And Sapphire is choosing to stop comparing. To be led by the Holy Spirit. And Sapphire is choosing to live by her faith. To know within that God will grant her Peace.
though lately, Sapphire feels like crying...and feels like being alone...but Sapphire aint going to fall into depression!
SApphire will survive & stand up strong, for JESUS is my Saviour, my Jehovah Jerih, You are my Healer...You are More than ENUFF.
Jehovah Jireh My Provider You are more than enough for me Jehovah Raepha You're my healer By your stripes I've been set free Jehovah Shammah You are with me To Supply All My Needs You are more than enough More than enough You are more than enough for me
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
5:51 PM
excessively excess. Tuesday, January 06, 2009//
Been having mood swing. Hot and Cold.
Too much & excessive? How much is too much? Will too much pull you or push you?
Will too much still cause linger? Will too little stir absence of the fonder heart?
How do you tell? Physchological?
How to know when to do what? Many things clashes & how to determine the action is the right one?
Confused. Sapphire is Confused. very. absolutely. utterly. I have no eye-deer.
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
1:20 AM
I trust God for His 2009 Providence. Saturday, January 03, 2009//
With All I am, I commit again....to You Jesus.
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
4:08 AM
M & M... //
And i Thanked God.
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
4:07 AM
3 consecutive days of outing with the same person. //
it has been a busy past 3 days. With a bad headache today too :(
On New Year Day, FINALLY Managed to convince someone to accompany me to somewhere, & was impressed with her performance too. Then went for a nice fishhead steamboat dinner. Next day, went to office to do some urgent reservation for client, luckily...he was queued about 9units. After that went to watch Australia with a friend! Not too bad, 3hrs. Quite Funny. Definitely not the BEST movie I have watched. But ok la! Except...it was so cold...and I had a bad stomachache :( After which, went to makan a simple & healthy dinner. Today, AGAIN, that somebody whom I managed to convince, actually jio me to accompany her to THAT PLACE again...HAHA. Hmm...is she addicted already?? But it was once again a good O'session! AND i saw Waihan after soooo long. Haha. Still as zai, still as fit, still as cheerful looking.
I have been thinking quite a lot about work lately. About this exciting 2009. A year of Peace.
I am looking very forward to This monday, when i will be OFFICIALLY starting work after a slack 2mths of Nov & Dec 2008 :) But once again, I am NOT going to work like a bull. Sapphire's resolution is to work hard, work smart. Still having time to play, to have fun, to serve in church, to spend time with my loved ones around....to spend time with God.
And with that. I know excatly just as Brenda has assured me. That God WILL PROVIDE. That God will GIVE ME ABUNDANCE!
But...once again, I am confused with my emotions. Somehow, I have stopped using my heart to feel....and starting to use my mind to think.
So sad, how sad.
And Sometimes i wish, ppl can be more proactive to initiate. While i can have the luxury to take the passive step....to reciprocate or not to...
HMMM. Human are so complex, so interesting.
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
3:32 AM
SApphire's Inner World ___________________
THIS IS MY STORY...
hmmm...a Virgo, a High C individual...Helper, AChiever & Loyalist.
lots of expectation for myself..perhaps also for the ppl around me.
dun like to face failure and disappointment, but i am definitely learning.
a Passive person, but as long as i appreciate the person, i will take the first step and get out of my comfort zone.
the Language of my love for the person that i cherish will be time.
the greater the time and effort spend on the person, the more important the person is to me in my life.
A stubborn, hot tempered, emotional, pessimistic gal.Loner.
"Anti-social" tagged by most people if you judge me by the first impression =)
i graduated in NUS as a mechanical engineer. i tried working in STMicroelectronics as a process engineer. but found that this is somethg that i dun reali enjoy. because i know God has created me differently.
He has made me with a passion to be with ppl. He has gave me a gift to make frds and minister to ppl. He has gave me a unique ability to make sincere relationship.
bcos Christ reigns in me.
so after becoming a engineer for a while, i quited and i am currently working in Walton international Grp(S) PTE LTD as a landbanker now.
it's a career that i reali enjoy bcos i get to meet all walks of ppl in my life. i get to help ppl to better invest in a correct way. to analyse together with my cients the oppt and not jus to do hard selling.
cos i dun believe in that. i like to share.
Not only so, I am also Volunteering under Touch Community Service in my Church, Volunteering in NYC as well as Sunday school :)
right now, my only Wish is to become even closer with Christ in this beauty journey of my Life.
i am a full time Christian & only a part time daughter, frd, landbanker, sportsman etc...
Lord, everything i have belongs to You...
drop me an email: yanying8@singnet.com.sg or 97545658 (Walton) or 90997000 (DTZ)
SApphire's Favourites ___________________
To have Harmony & Peace.
DayDreaming, Eating, Sleeping, Exercising, Catching up with peeps,
Reading, Shopping, having LOTSSS of $$$, Travelling, meeting new ppl everyday :)
I love Real Estate.
most importantly, to be in the presence of God!
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And i Thanked God.
