Merry Xmas & happy Bday Jesus.
Monday, December 25, 2006//
i worked on xmas eve, and i thanked God.
He blessed me with a good night. where my pdtn line is miraculously peaceful.
giving me the opportunity to have a peace of mind. not getting stressed.
i spent some time chatting with my Maintenance guys, with my operators & with some of my colleagues.
i so thank God.
i went for the FCBC morning svc on sun morning. and adult avc is good.
sunday after i'm back from work, took my breakfast, power nap for 1.5hr and went City Harvest for their 11am svc with my dad, mum & aunt.
it was amazingly.
for once, i was scared.
i remember once doc.ZM told me she feels like gog to New creation sometimes.
and to me, gog to another church nv occur to me. (though the tot of gog to another tribe does occur sometime back. but dun think so.)
but, when i was in CHC.
i realli feel like changing church.
Pastor kong Hee is a good preacher. a annointed one jus like Pastor L.Khong.
They were as charasmatic.
But, i dun know why. i have never enjoyed a svc as much as i have enjoyed today morning in CHC.
maybe cos it's xmas.
maybe.
but i doubt that's the sole reason.
i seriously dun want to think about it. and i am afraid of thinking.
cos i know in a church. accountability is a huge heap of stress. of explaining. to justifiy every actions.
and by changing church or tribe or watever it is. it's going to be a tough one.
sometimes, i wish my "activity" will not be such a tormented one.
but yet once again. if my "activity" are not made such a diff one. i believe, i will be much worse off than who i am today.
i always wanted to visit CHC. but never got a chance.
who knows. next time, i might go CHC in the morning. then FCBC for the youth.
though, it may not be very right. many ppl will discourage me & watever.
i haf no idea.
i jus want to go accordingly to my heart.
no more reasoning & battling of the mind.
and it's not like i'm not gog church???
but alrights alrights. i know everything that FCBC ppl will say when i do that.
but, alright. like wat i say. not gog to think about it.
watever comes.
meeting nia tml at raffles place for coffee.
prob gog to meet up with hqy.
prob meeting up with francis after he's back in town.
prob meeting up with weipern during our off shift for coffee.
prob prob prob.
i hate committment. fear of committment.
dun like the feeling of being tied up. being controlled. feel suffocating.
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
6:16 PM
I WannA WiSH YoU a MerRY XMAs.
//
Feliz Navidad
Feliz Navidad
Feliz Navidad
Prospero año y Felicidad
I want to wish you a Merry Christmas
I want to wish you a Merry Christmas
I want to wish you a Merry Christmas
From the bottom of my heart
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
6:39 AM
God hold on to me pls.
Tuesday, December 19, 2006//
December 19, 2006
Encouragement for Today
“Heavenly Peace on Earth”
Tracie Miles, Proverbs 31 Ministries Speaker
Key Verse:
John 14:27, “Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.” (NIV)
Devotion:
Almost everyone likes to travel. The travel advertisements that bombard our lives every day make traveling look so enticing. Pictures of exotic hotels with pampering spa services, palm trees rustling on warm tropical beaches, and cruise ships sailing through the calm sea waters tempt us to book a trip. Those visions are not a reality if you are a business traveler, jumping from airport to airport, never smelling the salty air or feeling the warm Caribbean breezes.
A job I held for many years required me to do a lot of traveling. I have never considered air travel to be as pleasurable as the airline commercials suggest. After months of consecutive flying, I had gotten accustomed to repeated flight delays, stale pretzels, and cramped quarters with other people who were not enjoying the trials of travel either.
I had flown enough to lose the white knuckles and shortness of breath during every take off, landing or turbulence, and I began to enjoy the brief time I spent on the plane. Each time I boarded a plane, God tugged at my heart to spend time with Him, so I began carrying my Bible with me. It allowed me rare opportunities for meaningful quiet time, all alone, just God and me. (As an employee, wife, and mother of three, any quiet time at all was a pure miracle!)
There is something very special about hovering above the cotton clouds with the blinding sunshine and the warmth of its closeness on my face. The blue skies with subtle pink and yellow highlights make me feel so close to God, and near His heavens. It is easy to imagine how beautiful and peaceful heaven must be as the plane soars up there.
On some flights, when the plane dipped beneath the clouds to make its descent, I realized the day wasn’t as I had thought at all. It was dreary, clouds were black not white and it was gloomy with rain. Instantly I felt saddened, and oh how I wanted to leap back up where nature’s beauty had brought joy into my heart - where I was close to the heavens, and where peace was so easily obtained.
On one particular trip God shared His peace with me, and I recognized He had a specific reason for putting me into circumstances that don’t always seem enjoyable. That day, God reminded me that I should always feel close to Him, and bask in the warmth of His peace every day. He showed me that I don’t need to be 30,000 feet in the air to feel near to Him. He is as close as I want Him to be, and as close as I will allow Him to be, every second of every day.
When we’re faced with trials, God wants us to seek his guidance and rise above the problems through his strength, grace and mercy so that we can bask in the warmth of His peacefulness. Just as I wanted to steer the plane back up into the clouds to the peacefulness of the skies, God desires for us to steer our hearts towards Him and seek the warmth of His face upon ours.
During this Christmas season, take time to remember that Jesus is standing by your side everywhere you go – in the mall, at the grocery store, at a holiday gathering, and in your kitchen. When you begin to feel burdened by the busyness of the season, allow yourself to imagine you are soaring high above the clouds, basking in His warmth and feeling His love on your heart.
I was not able to steer the plane back into the skies when I wanted to return to the peacefulness above, but I could steer my heart back to God. You can too, anytime you choose. In this way we can have peace on earth as it is in heaven.
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
9:07 AM
Mango Mango Mango!
Monday, December 18, 2006//
happy day, cos it's my mummy bday!
went MS for a splendid lunch! DELICIOUSSSS!
thank God, actually my nets card got some prob, the person swapped for 3 times?? still doesnt work, and i prayed!! and it worked immediately. WOOHOO!
then we went shopping!
YEAH! bought a Mango top for $19! and a reali nice trenchcoat for $92! HAHA. happy happy little sapphire!!! :)
and i thank God! cos suntec dun have my size for the trenchcoat and i prayed realiiiiiiiii hard! and i called Suntec branch!
guess what!! yesh la!
God gave me 1 at suntec! and i rushedddddddddd all my way there! :P
haha! these 2 Mango Top are my xmas prezzie for myself :) happi~~~
getting closer to my fellow engineers, happy!
getting closer to weipern the HP etching engineer :)
He's reali a nice guy!
thank God for him mans!else i will die alone in the fab! but with his great help, mannnn, i reali dun feel so alone, when he's reali helping me lotsa!
been fliping the recruitment sections, been visiting JobdDB~
hmmm, am i gog to quite my job??
God knoes.haha.
might be considering to jump to another semiconductor fab to play for prob 1 yr?
then prob, no more semiconductor fab for me liaos .
will settle down for something that i think i will do for a longer time.
who dun want to be rich?
of cos i want to.
of cos i love money.
but i thank God.
cos i know that i dun love money to that extend like what the bible say,"the love of money is the root of all evil."
i know that i am still able to part with my money to bless others. :)
hmmmmm......................tues and wed. what are my plans!!
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
7:46 AM
the called.
Friday, December 15, 2006//
finally!
i met up with miss.verlyna at raffles place, coffee & dinner.
nice and reali good catching up & talking.
prob in TH,she one of the few whom i will consider a frd made for a lifetime :)
looking forward to this coming week, where prob we will go out again.
thank God that she has met Jason. this couple that i am so waiting forward to attend their church wedding.
hmmm, banking and finance. should i enter? should i go for something else?
what does God reali want me to do?
process engineer is not someting i want in life. prob wanan leave this job in 2yrs time after i get to repay my bills to my papa.
i need 2000 bucks to do something. to do something that i believe God will not approve of.
that's why, ok. not gog to do it.
i miss hanging out with verlyna.
one of the few where you can jus get connected, and both are willing to be very vulnerable to one another.
where we are no long prideful in front of one another, where we want to humble down and be real with our weakness & sins and flaws.
it irritates me when i face ppl with high amt of D.
even though i can connect with them.
it jus reali mean deliberately making an effort to push the tot away that i am so being dictated around & being told what to do when they are so trying to behave like THE ONE with the perfect solution for me.
alright,jus some grumblings.
bought 6 prezzir for my operators, will give it to them later.
though i have to admit, i reali reali cannot stand them at times.
they destroyed my self esteem, make me feel so belittle like a dog than an engineer, make me feel so useless being compared around.
but watever. it's xmas, i jus wanna give them some blessings, that's jus me.
somemore, if one day i reali cannot take it.
i will leave even if its way before my 2yr committment i want to make.
there's always turning back.
i want to turn back.
when God call.s
God does not call the qualified.
but instead.
He. qualified. the called.
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
5:11 AM
Monday, December 11, 2006//
"you are who i say you are, bcos i made you with my hands."
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
2:36 AM
Sunday, December 10, 2006//
sometimes, i feel like i'm losing my purpose of living.
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
8:27 AM
i'm not miss.united states.
Saturday, December 09, 2006//
God has been very good to me this week at home.
i'm sick havin headache, and popping too much panadol for my own good, but He is good.
my line is not as busy, he gives me time to rest, to catch up &bond with my fellow colleagues.
i am enjoying my work more, cos getting closer to my shift engineers.
thank God.
i am reali glad, cos i will be meeting up with little verlyna for dinner on tues night.
reali glad. it's been a long long time since i saw her, except a little gathering after our grad trip.
gotta go shopping for some prezzie or DIY before tues come.
a season of love, a season of giving preszzie.
will be working on 24th night shift, need to cover for a colleague who is gog overseas.
hence, will be gog for adult service.
wont be gog for carolling and perhaps the evening night buffet.
hmm...boring xmas?
haha, yes & no.
kelly & dunlin, waiting for a good xmas dinner with you babes man, you can always call the others along if you want. haha, enjoying julee etc company more and more too :)
sigh....why izzit that during my NUS days, i hardly cherish the opportunity i have to get to know you girls more?
only after i graduate, then haha...miss you peeps man!
watching miss.congenality again now. yes, i simply love that show.
planning to go EUROPE for a week in feb or march nx year with a few of my colleagues, hope it turn out well though.
life is goot and i am getting happier, prob bcos i chose to stop being alone.
to reali find some company out.
to have fun, to face the reality, to face myself.
and to accept myself.
you need 2 hands to make a clap. of cos.
but i still strongly believe i have a choice to chose the hand to be clapped.
alright, unfair. alright, maybe it's a little biased etc.
but i cant help it.
oh rain, where are thou?
gif me a little blessing.
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
4:41 PM
sapphire loves shopping!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, December 06, 2006//
1:12:37, that's the timing i took to finish the 10km race.
haa, tough it's reali tortoise speed, at least this is my best clocking thus far.
went to extract my right upper wisdom tooth today.
$35 reali cheap!
happy~ no more pain... anymore.
nexy yr! to remove my right lower wisdom tooth by surgery....s..c...a..r...e..d...... T_T
happy! went shopping these 2 days, xmas pressie shopping is reali gd therapy, though it seems seeing my acct depleting in a way.
went to send the vietnam ppl off on tues morning at airport,went to orchard for some appt, then met up with kelly & dunlin for shoppin :)
treated dunlin ice cream for her super belated bday.
then went cine for dinner, cine to watch happy feet with their tribe sisters.then super at XinWAng! nice~~
happy to see julee. jus think that she's reali a woman who fears the lord.
"charm is deceptive, beauty is fleeting, but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised"
happy feet is reali nice. it brought me back to the simple fact that every thing is unique on its own. though he cant sing, but he can dance reali well. that's his gift. God has a reason for it, & the movie showed it.
went to listen to this great eastern financial planner together with kelly on wed morning.
she signed up a plan, happy for her...haha...first step to save hur hur.
then went lunch & then shop shop again.
going to meet up with ver soon, happy! time to fellowship with this dear frd for mine.
congrats tang huiyi. finally you are officially no eligible to use the student pass. to enjoy the student priviledge. GONG XI GONG XI....!!
spent the whole of last night wrapping prezie & writing cards.
haha, so happy.
my language of love is reali time, effory & service.
love tis season.
xmas xmas xmas!!
BUT....no more replaying of home alone this year...WHAT"S WRONG WITH MEDIACORP!!
haha...alright, maybe it's jus me.......OYY.
haha, i am a boring gal laaaa HAO BU HAO.
recuperating since the past 2 days.
sore throat BETTER.
fever THANK GOD i jus feel alittle feverish onli.
flu BETTER.
headache HMMM, it comes & goes again like the rain..haha.
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
10:21 PM
some ppl jus dun get it.
Monday, December 04, 2006//
thanks for the chat yday at Delifrance man tang huiyi! :)
it's been SOOOO long since i had such a relevant & good tok.
such a relief mansssssss!!!!!! liberation~~~
at least you are those that do not treat me like a "sick" patient.
do not go out with a agenda.
do not treat & scrutinise every action of mine with TLC.
do not tag me with this "Red alert" "in trouble" sign.
THANKKKK YOOOUUUU, you do not know how much it means to me mans.
kelly sms me yday,"you look so much happier these few weeks, praise God!"
i also think so lor.
i am so much better le, no longer that sian or bad mood. reali begining to enjoy & finding back my original path lor.
why ppl JUS cant get it?!!?
sometimes, you reali dun need a reason to be low profile, to be alittle sian, to be alittle down, to cry & to answer alter call.
sometimes, there jus do not need to have a reason.
in fact, the one that ppl see me as, those happy go lucky, those crazy & happy front, can be the "FAKE" front.
jus like wat i always tell Ms.mindy, that's not me.
i am jus trying to be an entertainer to entertain ppl.
until when this clown gets tired, the curtain needs to be drawn, & the clown needs to step out of this stage to take a breather.
i am pretending not bcos i want to gain approval or anything.
jus that if by being a clown,i can cheer ppl up, then oki lor.
haha, i mean what's wrong man!!!
%&$&*#$^%# HAHA. so be IT.
called & chatted with hong qiaoyun for 1hr on the phone.
feels good!
you know, no time to meet up though is not very ok, but what's hp for mans!
to tok, to chat up & to bitch & to fellowship la.
definitely, it's better to meet up cos it's more personalised, but com'on.
i am JUS providing an alternative here.
ms.mindy, are you feeling better le ma?
have your fever subsided?
are you still feeling nauseous, wanting to vomit???
when are we going out man~~~~ I AM W-A-i-T-I-N-G ....................
and when are you flying to your 2nd home?
xmas is coming! yeah~~~
but frankly, i rather have the choie to do the things i want, rather than to obey to do the things that maybe i need???
haha, watever, i am tired of complaining, complaining & complaining.
get a little closer to kelly, dunlin & their Sister in their CG.
haha, thank God that i am in Nus Engin. at least get to know more ppl in a way.
was invited to go for your BBQ for the NUS open cell, dun think i will be gog, cos i will be working night shifttttt~~~
poor hong qiaoyun, she is so busy working as well, that it's diff to meet up with her for an entire day.
i have a lot of frds, but i am not close to everyone.
i may have a lot of frds whom i can tok to them, but i am a right to chose who i want to share with.
i may seem gifted with the ability to "clique" with ppl with some conversations, but i am very selective when it comes to sharing really personalised stuff with.
like what huiyi says," some ppl jus clique lidat, some jus dont."
this is what i truly felt yday, that i told you too huiyi.
i hate it when ppl expect me to treat them the same way as how i treat the others.
cos i jus cant. cos i jus dun see a need.
i cant.
HAHA. watever~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i am so having a sore throat & headache now.
terrible~~~~
must be those heaty food. must be those stupid weather. must be those biscuits. urgh.
TOO BAD.
recuperating now~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
1:20 PM
cold dessert on a hot day makes everyone hairpee.
Saturday, December 02, 2006//
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
3:13 PM
-finally he replied my sms-
Friday, December 01, 2006//
happy bday Mr. jeremy Ng!
my beloved chemistry tutor :)
his bday on 1st Dec, sms him almost every year, and this year, he replied my sms...HAHA.
he's currently teaching Chem in RJC...no wonder, i cant find him in NYJC website...
haiyooo :)
missing him so much. missing those days..........................
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
11:26 PM
