Tuesday, February 28, 2006//
Joshua: Grandma, Singapore never rain for days, so is it raining in Johor Baru?
Grandma: No it didn't rain.
Joshua: Then my baby papaya tree will die! Grandma let's pray for my papaya tree.
"Dear Lord Jesus, I pray that you will protect my papaya tree in Johor Baru. Let it rain for a while but don't rain too much. Pray that the Longan tree will grow straight so that it won't slant and block the sunlight to my papaya tree. Amen!"
lolz.
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
11:49 PM
//
So you see, you can know the right things about God and not necessarily believe, in the biblical sense, in God. True belief in Jesus Christ is the quality of faith that will bring you to Him to commit yourself to Him, to rest completely on Him, and to trust Him fully, which will result in a radical change in your attitudes and lifestyle.
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
11:43 PM
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WOWW LAOOO EHHH!
help la.....fyp is sibei boring la!
so much work to doooooooooooooo, where got time!
i want to go out and play and eat and sleeeeeeppppppiiiieee.
sigh. received a sms today and was super sianz about it.
WHY LIDAT!!
sigh.
it's me.
oh well! TOO BAD.
composed a 60s song yday night.
feel good.
it has been soooooo long since i played my organ!
man!
simply love music!
thank God that i learnt it when i was young....HAHA.
career career career!
what should Sapphire work as when i graduate??
ahhhh...what company??
what is ambition??
what do i like?
sighhhh.
if onli i can jus slack around at home.
eat, sleep and go out.
and there will be THIS somebody who will have unlimited $$$ to "yang wo"!
weiiiii shhheeennnn moooooo zhhhheeeee yaaannnggggg~~~
zhen de shi fan si ren le la!
alright.
tonight got some grad trip meeting at 11pm.
wonder if i will be around.
simple feel like gog home.
been home on fri, sat, sun , mon.
SApphire simply wants to goooo hommeeee, dun want to stay in halllll.
Sahhpire miss my bed. my bedroom. my tv. my sofa. my organ. my fridge. etc etc SO MUCH.
sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
NAH!
it's not PMS.
just pass.
OH YA. maybe it's PMS.
POST. not pre.
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
still stuck in the stupidly and ridiculously clean cleanroom.
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
6:00 PM
i did a personality test again.
Saturday, February 25, 2006//
You are a person who is willing to share.
Any friends that came along, you will accept and trust them completely.
What you want in your life is half fullfilled.
You are weak in your life and tends to be fragile.
You have an average sex drive.
You have a lot of good friends.
Your last relationship is good and it's still fresh in your heart.
Even when your partner is around you, you will flirt around with others.
You have an average ego.
A humble personality is in you.
You get average bond with your friends.
Your partner is only average in your heart.
Your partner is a very homely and humble person.
You will go to your friends whenever you are met with problems.
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
4:08 PM
Thursday, February 23, 2006//
i am glad that the "truth" is finally revealed. tonight.
happy. or rather relieved bah.
ur mind is a very powerful tool.
dun ever let the devil manipulate ur tots.
be patient and wait.
nv shortchange ur destiny.
always keep yourself in check.
seek help. fight the flesh.
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
1:27 AM
Tuesday, February 21, 2006//
Life in the Fast Lane
To everything there is a season, a time for every purpose under heaven.
— Ecclesiastes 3:1
We live in a mobile and fast-paced society. We just don't like to wait for anything anymore. We like things fast. We don't even have to wait for ketchup anymore. It comes in an upside-down squeeze bottle now.
I have to admit that, personally, I like things fast. If I am on the freeway and one lane is moving just a little faster than the other, I will switch over. If I'm in line at a store, and I see a new register open, I will go over there just so I can get out four seconds faster than everyone else.
We get our news fast too. In the old days, we would have to wait until later in the day for the news. But now, through satellite technology, we can get our news as it is happening. We like things fast, boiled down, and simplified.
We carry this thinking over into our spiritual lives as well. We expect God to work the same way. If God has something to say to us, we prefer that it would be in a ten-second sound bite, because we are awfully busy.
Here is the problem with this thinking when it applies to God and the spiritual life. God rarely gives His eternal truths in ten-second sound bites. We can't have spiritual growth fast and simple. Spiritual growth takes time, and lots of it. In fact, it takes a lifetime.
Let me ask you this: Do you have something more important or significant to do with your life than to get to know the God who created you and to walk with Him? That is why God put us here in the first place. And it will take a lifetime.
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
9:27 AM
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alright! this is the 2nd part.
been sick for the past 1-2 weeksssss, sigh!
feverish, a bit flu, sore throat, coughing like mad!
i woke up at 430am today...till now.
when i finish cooking my stuff, actually met my dearest candice in the toilet, and had a good chat! XD
haha...man! why are our bio-clock so diff dearie!!
*faint*...if onli i can be like you...sleep like the whole wide world doesnt exist.
now, i am trying to recuperate...but somehow, sleeping in hall doesnt seem to be an easy task..haha, sapphire is reali a HOME person man!
probably going back home this wed evening after my appt at SGH!
went to IBN yday....and did nothing again though i stayed for 6 hrs.
machine was being used up by one of the researcher...and i gotta wait.
yes...wait...until 6pm then i left.
that's why today Sapphire gonna go at 830am to chop the machine!
KIA-Su-ism may not be a bad thinggy after all hur hur!
hopefully, i will be able to go for the bball victory at HV later 630pm to eat the X0 zi-cha stall!
unless...sapphire is unable to run finish all her expt, then i gotta meet you guys for desserts le bah! :)
sapphire has got SO MUCH work to do.
1 midi music to compose.
1 essay to comment about some concert.
2 projects (40% & 60%)
1 FYPPPPPPPPP.
2 mid-term quiz.
so much to do, yet so little time.
yday, when i went to IBN, one of the fellow research (PAVEL) offered me a part-time job...i was very enticed and keen initially i have to admit..
but after thinking...and toking to one of my colleague in ibn...perhaps, sapphire wont take up the offer.
cos PAVEL is not a easy person to work with...and also, i think i shouldnt over-stretch myself this period esp since, i needa rest also with so much workload.
been to SJC service learning proj mentoring on last sat!
it was greattttt!
God reali bless me a lot with a very helpful and responsive girl (called RY)in the team.
she reali reali helped me so much!
i was so stressed up in the beginning cos Aina seems to be very busy and bo-chap about the whole thing, and it seems like i am the only one who is anxious and feel responsible to this task given to me.
but God is good!
things have been going on smoothly, in fact, i am SO excited about leading this SJC girls with Aina :)
tok to RY on msn and sms, and reali think she is very funny! :)
God reali knows when and how to bring these little cute girls into my life to cheer me up!
i haf always long to have a very very close senior who i can tok to and share my stuff with. haha...perhaps, i like to be lead, to be given advice by a person with more wisdom, experience etc bah.
BUT, haha...all these while, nvm reali haf a chance.
though, i am still a bit close to ah-beng and wanling, but then i guess, we are still considered as jus normal frds?
perhaps, thats why, everytime when i am with younger girls, i would try my best to make them feel comfortable, to "ah-ga-ji" with them. HAHA.
cos i think it's only normal for "juniors" to want to have this kind of closeness or fellowship with the "seniors"??
haha... :)
gonna be so busyyy and 10weeks to the end of my STUDIESSS!!!
so fastttt!
God reali need to lead me to the career tat He wants me to do man.
SApphire reali got no idea man!
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"the greatest thing on earth is to love."
God came to earth to love, that's why He died.
To love is Christ.
the greatest thing on earth is Christ.
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--AbsoluteSApphire8--
5:21 AM
this Blog is specially dedicated to MINDY xiao-jie.
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my soul waits for the Lord & in His word i do hope. says:
eys...haven't lei. this wed - fri
my soul waits for the Lord & in His word i do hope. says:
u comin for sanctification?
yy - is once again lost, but not found. yet. says:
wed-fri? 3 days 5 tests??
yy - is once again lost, but not found. yet. says:
i will most probably be goin for the thurs and fri one, tues and wed i not sure yet
yy - is once again lost, but not found. yet. says:
cos tomroz got tuition, if go also will be late
yy - is once again lost, but not found. yet. says:
then wed might have project meeting, so need to see my project members
yy - is once again lost, but not found. yet. says:
you gog on all days ah?
my soul waits for the Lord & in His word i do hope. says:
nope 2 more tests next week.
my soul waits for the Lord & in His word i do hope. says:
yeah i will go everyday. hopefully i won't stress out till i die
yy - is once again lost, but not found. yet. says:
haha...no lah, you gave up time to study to go...soooo, He will bless you richly de!
yy - is once again lost, but not found. yet. says:
haha..
my soul waits for the Lord & in His word i do hope. says:
haha i hope so. but i need the sanctification more than good test results la. see you there hor. jia you with ur projects
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HAHA, usually i will save those impt, meaningful or chats that are worthed keeping :)
SO...haha, still remembered i always told you, you are the one whom God used to bring me to sanctification EVERYYYYDAYYYY last year? :)
i bet you forgot le lahhhhhh blur sotong!
so decided to post it on my blog, to remind you! XD
HAHA. wow lao ehhhh, eat more "pig's brain" to improve on your memory man! 16MB is NOT enuff la!!!bleah~~
zhihong! remind your MAMA to do tat!! =D
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
5:07 AM
Monday, February 20, 2006//
i got so much things to blog right now...so much things going on in my head now!
but then this shall be the part 1! haha...cos i am going to IBN soon to do my fyp! so will blog more in the stupid %^&*(*&^ clean-room later! HAHA.
firstly, i jus wanna say that the "weird" feeling that i have towards "him" and "her" is GONE!
praise the Lord man! =D
happy!
indeed, God has kindda sanctified me le bah!
i guess ultimately, i jus wanan be frd with them, or rather with "her".
like what Ms.mindy said in the car on Tues towards Ms.Y & Ms.D, perhaps sometimes we are jus looking for a substitute, looking for someone with the qualities that attract us. perhaps becos of loniness??
HAHA. but i know it's definitely not loniness for me. cos i love being ALONE le! :)
but reali gotta thank God! no more affected by these stuff now le :)
i am more "ta shi" now, getting geared up for the more impt issues in my life.
THANK GODz!
secondly, yap, i lost my fav pink N6111phone (which i think a lot of ppl are shocked by this selection of colour).
that day when i lost it, i cried in the MRT, cos it's jus sooo painful, to lose somethg that matters so much to me.
it's not jus the phone. it's the things, contacts, sms etc etc inside!
they are like so important and meaningful to me.
all in 1 day, i lost everything. sigh. sad.
but surprisingly, thr-out the whole day without a phone, though i was overwhelmed with disappointment, sadness and even confused as in why God allowed this to happen...i felt peace.
nobody to contact me, no need for me to contact others. no phone and no watch and thus aimlessly walking without the need to keep track of my plans and time of the day.
somehow, the world doesnt exist anymore to me.
no contacts.
jus me and God.
i know that i always have Him around no matter what happen, wat time, where i am too.
when i told my brother, he cursed on the phone that he hoped the person's(who stole my phone) family will all die.
immediately, i scolded him. cos i think he's in the wrong to curse.
VERY SURPRISED with this man...haha, usually, i wouldnt be lidat. i will join him!haha.
after scolding him, i pause for a moment, and sms my brother back. i know that he is concerned and felt pain and angry for me for losing the phone.
so i explained to him that i am okie with it, its only a phone, money can be earned back, and i not sad anymore le. i told him to relac and no need to be so angry :)
HAHA. sighh...why am i consoling him instead?? HAHA.
but thankssss mindy!
haha, sometimes i jus like your character. very "hao-shuang" and "kan de kai"
when i told you tat i lost my phone and your attitude towards this issue totally makes me feellllllll so much better!
like there's no need to self-pity and dwell in this. life still goes on. it's onli a phone after all! HAHA. xie xie ni le man! =D
and ya...i even told my brother that "perhaps the one who stole my phone needs the $$ to save someone urgently in the hospital, you never know."
but wad-ever. maybe i am pretending to say things to make me feel better.
but definitely, thr this issue, i know that God jus wants me to lead and live a simple life.
no need glamourous stuff. no need gadgets. no need the best. no need the newest.
live a simple life. live a meaningful life. live a life with contentment.
to live in Christ alone.
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
2:06 PM
Saturday, February 18, 2006//
After participating in this interesting personality test (the zhi-X sistas~~), HAHA, decided to get one for myself too! :)
i think it will be interesting for me to know what others think of me.
would love to know about the hidden self :)
alright!
so hope you guys will participate in it too!
be frank and honest pleaseeee =D
http://kevan.org/johari?name=RaiNn8
http://kevan.org/nohari?name=RaiNn8
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
12:27 AM
Plane.
Tuesday, February 14, 2006//
~if my arms have wings, i will fly to the sky.~
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
5:36 PM
//
"Portrait of a Friend"
I can't give solutions to all of life's problems, doubts,
or fears. But I can listen to you, and together we will
search for answers.
I can't change your past with all it's heartache and pain,
nor the future with its untold stories.
But I can be there now when you need me to care.
I can't keep your feet from stumbling.
I can only offer my hand that you may grasp it and not fall.
Your joys, triumphs, successes, and happiness are not mine;
Yet I can share in your laughter.
Your decisions in life are not mine to make, nor to judge;
I can only support you, encourage you,
and help you when you ask.
I can't prevent you from falling away from friendship,
from your values, from me.
I can only pray for you, talk to you and wait for you.
I can't give you boundaries which I have determined for you,
But I can give you the room to change, room to grow,
room to be yourself.
I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting,
But I can cry with you and help you pick up the pieces
and put them back in place.
I can't tell you who you are.
I can only love you and be your friend.
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
5:02 PM
thank God for the wonderful 7000 challenge :)
Monday, February 13, 2006//
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
11:15 PM
Sunday, February 12, 2006//
when you become a christian, there's no excuse for you to sin. for you already have power over the sins in your life.
but when you are still a pre-believer, you are forgiven. for you do not have any power over these sins. yet.
agree.
before i became a christian,many things that i heard about christians and their culture, i was like... "what the....!!! WHY!?!?! wow kaozzz etc etc!!!"
haha...
but after i became one.
indeed.
there were enlightments. transformations.
i began seeing how the "right" things in the past can be so wrong.
like wat i shared today.
it's the battle between the heart and mind.
rationality VS emotionality.
i believe most christians should know the perfect answer.
the right thing to do.
thats bcos we have the Holy Spirit in us.
and i thank God for that. for His Grace.
but, its often difficult.
you know that its a sin.
you want to run away.
but sometimes its hard.
there's no excuse for christians to sin cos we have the power and ability to run away.
but there's a choice. that's a choice.
do you want to avoid and run away from it?
or do you want to seek pleasure and dwell in it?
HAHA.
mindy and huiyi, i believe this struggle between the heart and mind is definitely very real.
but, there's no absolute and definite solution and way of doing to fight this battle.
though this battle belongs to the Lord.
sigh.
man needs to take the effort. to take the first step.
to decide. to make a choice.
sigh. difficult.
how to make a choice that pleases my heart and my mind??
double-mindedness.
how real.
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
10:07 PM
Saturday, February 11, 2006//
reali like this foto a lot.
nice.
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
12:35 AM
Friday, February 10, 2006//
珊瑚海
詞:方文山 曲:周杰倫
男：周杰倫 女：梁心頤(Lara)
海平面音浪開始隱埋 悲傷要怎麼平靜純白
我的臉上 始終夾帶 淹沒淺淺的無奈
你用唇語說你要離開 情不在
那難過呼聲攔了下來
洶湧潮水 你一定明白
不是浪而是淚海
轉身離開 認真說不出來
你有話說不出來
海鳥跟魚相愛 只是一場意外
我們的愛 猜疑一直存在
給的愛 猜疑一直存在 回不來
永久真愛 竟累積成傷害
等待經歷幾次傷害
轉身離開 分手說不出來
蔚藍的珊瑚海 錯過瞬間蒼白
當初彼此 不夠成熟坦白
你有我的 不夠成熟坦白 不應該
熱情不在 笑容免強不來
你的笑容勉強不來
愛深埋珊瑚海
毀壞的沙雕如何重來 有裂痕的愛怎麼重蓋
只是一切 結束太快 妳說妳無法釋懷
貝殼理隱藏什麼期待 等花兒開
我們也已經無心再猜
面向海風 面向海風
鹹鹹的愛 鹹鹹的愛
嚐不出海有未來
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
5:29 PM
//
SApphire needs to jiayou for her FYP!!
start typing your bloody hell FYP le...!
no time no time.
discipleeeee plssss!!
so many work coming up!
project, individual assignmentssssssssss(s)sssss(s)!!!
mid term test....
OMIGOSH!
jiayou jiayou jiayou jiayou!!
p/s:
mindy, jiayou for your exams too!
dun stress okies!
"hotline" is there for you to bombard! HAHA.
Stop worrying and jus get your eyes to the books and ass to the chair and MUG.
else, give yourself a break, no need to take a tik-kat, jus go to your "hamster training ground" or to the BED!! =D
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
7:40 AM
Wednesday, February 08, 2006//
a question is asked.
sigh.
very tempted to be honest.
to say what i reali feel.
what i reali want.
but.
perfect answer was given.
a righteous answer.
to fight the temptation.
should i regret?
should i have done otherwise?
if onli i can be honest.
and say what i truly felt.
but perhaps, this is what they say,"the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak."
though, no doubt, i wish i had told my true view, opinion and desire.
but i am glad that i fought this flesh.
perfect answer.
perfect answer.
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
9:14 AM
Monday, February 06, 2006//
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
12:03 AM
a sweet victory
Saturday, February 04, 2006//
man.
finished our match at 1030am.
but somehow, it still feels so "close", so "immediate experience" even till now.
as i am sitting right in front of my pc, my thoughts are still so disorganised, so overwhelming.
i have so much that i want to blog it down, so much to say...
when i was on my way home on the bus, i was recalling the whole match, the experience in these 4 years.
frankly saying, i seriously CANNOT remember a single thing that i did on court...
haha.
in fact, i was a bit disappointed by my performance in 3rd Q.
but somehow the sweet victory reali overwhelms such disappointment in me.
i am happy for the team.
like candice.
though i may be disappointed, but i am so proud of your performance today.
for once, i felt like i am in a team. played like i am in a team.
win like a winner.
we won not becos the opponents are weak.
but we played well.
it's amazing....today's game is just SO beautiful.
reali Thank God for baofen, huihui and esp angela.
i seriously learnt damn a lot from them, esp angela.
she is like so patient, so motherly, she is like lingqing. haha. man!!! i also wana send my daughter to NYGH!!! =D
thinking back..i am quite guitly.
in the past meilian kind of told me some stuff and i had some "pian jian" against angela.
but this year IHG bball reali changed my impression of her TOTALLY.
she and huihui are like my ou xiang!
even as i witness huihui, speading herself on the floor to snatch and try to get the bball from the EH reali stunned me.
i was like "kaoz. huihui?? she actually did that? she is a star player lei!"
that's my mentality.
for the past 2 years, i haven reali seen huihui played so well and fought so hard, unlike today. HAHA.
guess maybe like wat zenia said, we think huihui is starting to have some feelings towards this team, IHG bball and TH and we all le bah?? :)
but when i saw how this "kobe/jordan" in our team is going ALL out to get the bball, i was like so inspired, so so awaken by her.
i know that i want to go for every ball too. jus like the way she did.
:)
feeling very lost now.
haha. still super duper HAPPY. still smiling.
yet. like wat i said to candice. i miss bball.
yes. 10mins after the whistle is blown,i alreadi told her that.
like what wanling agrees.
i dun jus miss the match.
but the trainings.
the drills.
the warm ups.
the punishment.
the "discussions and agruments" on court.
everything.
though we dun have as comical players like jasmine who ate potato chips in the middle of training, but every training was GREAT fun.
having such a good coach like baofen was beautifully blessed.
man....i am sooooooooooooooo gonna miss her!!!
HAHA :)
missed shijia and wanling so much too.
still remember vivdly some of the jokes we shared during year 1.
haha...and shijia jus reminded me today.
MAN.
such overwhelming feeling.
i am graduating.
i have finished ALL my IHG.
2 Golds this year.
i am gog to play in the alumni team liao!
with Aili....lingqin. wanling. haili. yuhan.etc.
sigh.
ppl like stella, ade, huilin, huihui, angela.
i am SO gonna miss playing with them.
reali gotta know them so much more this time round. and seriously thank God for the opportunity man.
cant wait to dled the FULL VERSION of today's match if possible!
i want to re-watch the whole match!! haha.
cant wait for my IHG bball treat!!! :)
man.
it reali makes a difference when you played ur best.
will i still feel the same if the outcome is diff?
even if we played equally well?
hmmm....no idea man.
but thank God.
it was a good ending.
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
11:34 PM
hapi hapi chineseeeee Neow Earrrr!!
Wednesday, February 01, 2006//
this is a festival of "OVER".
over eating.
over sleeping.
over socialising.
haha...but i still love CNY!
great time of gathering with my cousins.
though its only a short 5 days holiday...sat to wed.
but i had a good time with my daddy at his fish farm, had a good time talking with my cousins, had a good time EATING AND EATING.
and God spoke very clearly to me today morning as well.
i guess i want this 1st Feb to be the day when i start afresh.
i hope.
i thank You for who You are.
i thank You for who i am and what i have.
--AbsoluteSApphire8--
10:58 PM
