yday evening, my section manager-boss rAYmond asked me to filled up my MBO. something like end of yr appraisal & eval stuff.
we had a little personal talk.
he asked me if i think he should leave. and i said yes and mentioned the reasons why i felt he should leave. for a better opportunity perhaps. and he shared w me why he cant leave as easily perhaps of committments as a married man.
surprisingly. He said a little comment, that is really affirming.
He said that all along, he like me (as a colleague/frd/employee), & when he means like, he means it. the reason is bcos he always feel that i have a personal touch.
suddenly at the end of the conversation, i jus feel prompted. and i told him to be frank, i dun intend to stay for long as well. told him some of the reasons.
and he said something."sometimes, it's reali saddening, bcos we dun give ourselves a chance to try it out. bcos deciding and commenting if we are realli cut out for it. sometimes we only listen and influence by the ppl ard us."
in fact, when one of my G4 (handover) partner told him that she may be leaving too,my collegue told me he said to her that ,"until you find the winning formulae in life, then i will let you go. no bcos i am your boss. but bcos i want you to succeed in life."
perhaps, he is still pet-talking. jus trying to use "ku ruo ji" or some psycho-ing soft skills to make us stay.
but, personally,i dun reali see it that way.
perhaps,i should give myself more chance. to stay and say it for myself.
to stay and give myself another chance.
i dun know. as i bought the straits time today.
i realy felt SO tormented.
SSMC. UMC. all employing ppl.
to be frank, in terms of pay & bonus & management & culture of company.
STMicroelectronics SUCK.
SSMC & UMC are getting ~ 6 or 7 or 8 mths bonus for non-pro-rated employee.
while ST is only given ~3mths?
i guess Mr.Patrick Thong have to be much better in rewarding ppl to stay. to make your ppl (assets) to stay.
money sometimes can buy loyalty too. and pls, be more ppl orientated rather a slave to cost save in a wafer fab.
i am confused cos there are so many good opportunties out there.
and i kept telling myself.
sometimes the best thing maybe not be the best for a person.
sometimes it's when the temptation is so great out there, that you are tested by God.
sometimes you just gonna be humble. and know it before you can walk, you need to learn how to crawl.
sometimes the not so good place can be a good training ground to equip youself.
sometimes you need to know to have patience.
sometimes these are the times to believe that God has no reason to shortchange you. and even if you make a mistake. He will be able to turn it around to create an even better opportunity. for you alone.
sometimes you jus need to settle down. get your heart to conc to do well on the things on hand.
if you cant even do simple stuff. how can God enstrust you with much more.
*** continue to pray & listen to HIm***
